"I love you more!" These were Teresa's last words to us.
As she was taken into surgery on Monday morning , she once again came out of the VERY heavy sedation as they started to move her to the OR. She opened her eyes and held my hand and I told her once again that SHE was the BOSS! She gave me the thumbs up and slowly drifted back to sleep.
As the Doctors came out of the OR to tell us that she would not make it , they very quickly brought her back to her room on ECMO and the Double ventricular assist Device ( Double Berlin) so that we could hold her as she died. They knew we did not want her to die alone without her family. Father Whatley ( "Her Jesus ", this is what she called him ) was with us. We held her and told her it was OK to rest, she did not have to keep fighting. We told her to ride her princess bike right into Jesus arms. She had her ears pierced right before she died . She would have loved it!
The hardest part was the silence. NO more machines , beeps , buzzers , alarms. The Double berlin slowly stopped pumping. She very peacefully left my arms and went into Jesus's. The most peaceful moment of her life (with no more pain and suffering ) was our worst. Saying good bye to someone you love more than life itself is excruciating. A piece of my heart died yesterday. Our life will never be the same without her in it. Our house has a new uncomfortable
Coming home and leaving her in the hospital was so hard. We bathed her, we held her for hours and we told her how brave she was and how much we loved her . I told her I would ALWAYS love her more.
The silence in our house is beyond painful. Teresa was the magic that surrounded us for almost three years.
I did not want to go to sleep because I knew I would wake up in the morning with out her there. Every morning she would wake up with her sweet little smile and say " What princess dress can I wear today ?"( her bed is in our room so we could monitor her at night with all of her medical equipment).
Her little pink piano sits with all of her little friends on it. She loved to sing and play it.
Her memories are everywhere.
We asked for Teresa to become an organ Donor. Unfortunately all of her organs were too damaged along with her skin and tissue.
Teresa's life was THE MIRACLE! Her Doctors could not believe that she was still alive with the heart she had. Her life touched thousands of people all over the world.
Only by the power of God could a little orphan with half a heart touch so many lives.
Now in Heaven she will touch many more lives. I know she is already a Saint!
Her Story is not over it has only just begun.
Teresa's celebration of her life will be on friday at ST. Mark Church in Catonsville from 2-5 and 7-9. Her funeral mass will be on Saturday at 10 . She will be burried next to my Mother .
We would ask everyone on Friday and Saturday in memory of Teresa to give someone a hug. Teresa hugged EVERYONE. She always said " One more huggy huggle". This is how she spread Gods love to others along with her magical personality.
In Teresa's memory we would like to help other orphans in the world to have a family of their own just like Teresa so desperatly wanted.
We would also ask that in Teresa's memory everyone would register to become an organ Donor and become someones HERO.