The Bartlinski Bunch

" Teresa "

" Teresa "

Teresa "Fang Fang " Bartlinski

Teresa was born on December 25, 2006 in China. She was born with a very complex heart condition. In July 2010, GOD added Teresa to our family through adoption. We have been blessed with 9 wonderful children. Gods grace has woven us together as a family. Upon bringing Teresa home from China we unfortunately learned she not only needed a heart transplant but also a lung transplant. Her doctors feel she would not survive this operation. Please help us to pray for a miracle for Teresa's heart and lungs to be healed. She is a very special little soul who has touched so many lives around the world ...

Thursday, December 19, 2013

How are you doing?

 A lot of people have asked  how we are doing.  We knew the first year with out Teresa would be difficult especially Christmas day since this is also her Birthday.  Teresa loved celebrating her Birthday with  Jesus.

Ed and I wanted to skip Christmas this year.  Watching the rest of the world go on with so much joy and happiness was too painful since our joy ( Teresa) was gone.  But we knew we could not do this to our other children.  They deserved to be happy and have a joyful Christmas also.   So we have done the best we can in the midst of great sadness to make Christmas for them special.

"How are you doing?"  seems like such a generic question.   Some people use it as a greeting,  not really wanting an in depth answer.   Others can only handle a  response of "we are  doing o.k.",  and yet others seem afraid to even ask.  But there are a few who can see behind the smile that hides the pain and the eyes that can cry no more or the arms that long to hold the one that is gone.  To these friends we  don't need to tell how we are doing because they somehow know.  

The death of Teresa has left a permanent scar on my soul.  It is a scar that I will wear proudly because without it I would not be who I am today.   I lived for 45 years without Teresa and only three years with her.  I did not know what was missing from my life until I had her. I now know so much more all because three years of my life were touched by an angel. 

This journey with Teresa has brought our entire family closer to God.   The journey has been very hard and painful but it also was filled with so much joy with Teresa.    We no longer try to find our new normal.  This is something that will never be attained.   We are different.  This difference does not make us special.  This "difference" was given to us by God. I do not know why nor do I understand why God has taken us on this path.  It is a path that I would surely not choose as my will but one that I will trust in God to lead us on for His Will is always perfect.

Tonight as Gemma was saying her prayers she said,"   Mommy, I know why the Doctors could not give Teresa a new heart,  because Jesus had to give her one in Heaven. " 

I know this is true and I know she will celebrate her Birthday in Jesus' arms , both of them celebrating their birthdays together on Christmas day and this is what we will celebrate with a joyful yet heavy heart.

Ron Lee Davis
~ In this life we will encounter hurts and trials that we will not be able to change; we are just going to have to allow them to change us..

 Billy Graham
~ We cannot truly face life until we have learned to face the fact that it will be taken away from us.

 John Vance Cheney
~ The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears.

Thank you for all of the  prayers, love and support.

Monday, December 9, 2013

One Wish

What would you wish for if you had one wish?

Gemma is the star student this week in school.   She is so excited.  She decided that Teresa would be the star student with her so she filled out the questionaire with information about her and Teresa.

Gemma-  favorite color -rainbow, Teresa-pink.   Gemma- favorite book,Green Eggs and Ham, Teresa- Shoe La La.

The last question was - "What would  you wish for if you had one wish?"

Gemma wished to see what Teresa was doing in Heaven.

This year we decided to remember Teresa by changing our Christmas tree.  It is Pink with pink lights, sparkly shoes, snowflakes, angels, wings , flowers and tiaras. everything teresa loved.

We love you more Teresa!!!!