God is Good

God is good all of the time.
Some people say that when God answers their prayers that God is good , or if things are going great in their lives  , that God is good.    If their child came through surgery and their child is doing great, then God is good.   But what about all the children that did not do well in surgery  or the people who are struggling with challenges in their lives.   Is God being bad to them?  No , I believe God is good all of the time.  Not only when things are going our way but also when things do not go the way we have  planned. Our prayers are always heard and answered.  But some prayers will only be answered in Heaven.  And this does not make God bad.
In our limited ability as humans , we can only see life from this side of the grave.   God see's life from Heaven  and eternity.   And because of this I always trust Gods Will. It doesn't mean that I understand it but by faith I believe.

With all five of our adoptions ,  God has slowly  pried one finger at a time on my grasp of control of my life away.  With Teresa, I still had one finger holding on for my own control of my life.  Now my hand is completely open reaching for Jesus's hand.  For Him to have complete control of my life and lead me to do HIS Will.

Giving up control was hard for someone that is a control freak.  But once I let go,  life is so much easier.

Our trip to China was amazing!  Even though we have traveled to China 5 times before for adoptions, it was totally different experiencing things that happen before adoption. 
Our days were long and full.   We accomplished so much and laid the groundwork for what we need to accomplish for the "Love You More Heart Home".
As we continue to work out the details I will share them with you as we proceed ,  but for now I can say it will be wonderful.   Every person involved had a hand in taking care of Teresa or knowing Teresa while she was in China.  How God's Will led us to all of these people is a miracle in its self.  Totally orchestrated by God just like everything in Teresa's life.  All having so many happy memories of Teresa to share with us. 

                                                Lily helped to take care of Teresa 3 years ago.  She is so caring and goes above and beyond to help the children.

                                  Some of the Heart Team.

                 Florence is one of kindest people I have ever met.  She is on a mission to help the orphans all over the world.  She also helped to take care of Teresa 3 years ago,

Someone asked me if we had known  the plans God had for us to do His Will would we still have been so willing to say yes.   God reveals  His Will to us  a little at a time.  And gives us the Grace to do it as we need it.   If you had  asked me if I thought I  could go through 2 weeks  with Teresa's new heart not working , 3 open heart surgeries in 2 weeks, emergencies, infections, Caths., suffering and then holding her as she died I would of said there is no way I could do that. But God gives us the strength at the moment we need it to go on and be strong.  And now traveling to China 2 months after Teresa went to heaven, to help open a heart home for orphans with heart disease like her ,  I would of said the same thing.  But God has once again led us and orchestrated it all and is in control.


Teresa' whole life was an amazing journey.  One filled with so much love and hope.   Now as the journey continues for us with her in heaven, we know God will lead us and give us the strength.  With Teresa sending her love and hugs to the world.

                           God is good !

China - Our Last Day

Tomorrow we leave for home. This journey has been truly amazing. The people that God put in our path is nothing short of a miracle. Everyone we met was somehow connected in some way to Teresa. They were care givers, volunteers, nurses, nannies and other adoptive parents. We had a mission after Teresa passed away to help other orphans and God has orchestrated it all. HE has allowed us to see things that have once again forever changed who we are. Some things we saw were unbearable and I was at first very angry with God for showing us this. But then I realized God was not doing this, HE was allowing us to see it so we could do something to help. We all must do something to help.

Our hearts were also filled with much Joy. After Teresa passed we were filled with so much sadness I did not think we would ever be able to feel joy again. This trip has given us Joy once again. We are very excited about the plans for the new heart home (Love You More Heart Home). The ground work has been laid out and we know exactly what we need to accomplish. We will have the potential to help so many heart orphans and also help very poor families to receive surgery for their children. We know God will lead us and orchestrate it all.

This trip was so emotional that I am at a loss on how to describe it all. Once we process it, I will post more details.

Thank you to everyone who has helped us on this incredible journey. A journey that we would never had known had we said no to adoption and God leading us to China.

China - Hospital #81

It is midnight in Beijing and we just arrived back to our hotel after a very long day at Hospital #81. I will post an update tomorrow when we are not as tired. Tonight I will leave you with photos of our very productive day.

China - Shanxi

Yesterday our meeting with the team for the new heart home was amazing.  We all were so full of hope on how we could help heart children.  We brainstormed on a location, budget, care . . . it is very promising.  It is so humbling to be a part of a team that has the same vision as us that wants to help orphans, the ones considered hopeless.

Today we traveled by train to Shanxi.   As we arrived to our hotel , we could not believe it.   It was the same hotel we stayed at 3 years ago to adopt Teresa.   It was very hard walking into the lobby.  All the memories, photos and hope for a future together came flooding back.  It seemed like we had just been here.  Three years gone in the blink of an eye.  Its funny how things go in a complete circle.  Here we were, standing in the same spot that three years ago held so much joy and hope, and now we were here without Teresa trying to give hope to other children like her.

After unpacking we visited a local orphanage.  We have visited many orphanages in China.  Some good, some not so good, but nothing compared to what we saw today.  We were asked not to post any photos.  I have no words to describe what we saw . . . only tears.   And I ask God WHY?  How can this be His Will for these children?

We also visited The Little Flower Home in Taiyuan.   It is an amazing place that provides so much love and care.  We provided them with some medical training on care for infants and they were very grateful.  These young women work so hard to take care of the children.

The world needs to know there is an orphan CRISIS in the world.  Not just China or Africa or India, but the world.It is  everyone's responsibility to care for the orphans.  Please open your hearts to adoption.  If you can't adopt then help someone who can.  Everyone can pray for a family that is adopting or financially help them or offer support in another way. But we can not turn our back on the most vulnerable.  The Bible tells us ALL to help the widows and ORPHANS.

China - BJU Hospital

Our day started off early this morning as we headed to the BJU Hospital in Beijing. We received a tour of the entire hospital. We then had lunch with the nursing staff. Afterwards Dianna presented a lecture to the nurses on post op cardiac care. It was very informative and they seemed to really appreciate the information.

Tomorrow we are meeting with the team to discuss the plans for the new heart home. We are very excited to be part of a group with the same desire as us to help the orphans with severe heart disease. There is such a tremendous need for care of orphans with heart disease. I know we can not save them all but we can make a difference in the lives of many.

On Sunday we will take the bullet train to Taiyuan. We will visit the Taiyuan SWI and also The Little Flower Foster home there. On Monday we will drive to the Lvliang SWI. This is Teresa's orphanage. Hopefully we will be able to help them identify children with Cardiac disease sooner so they can receive medical help before their lungs become damaged.

This is the first time in 28 years that Ed and I have been away without any of our children. It is a little odd not to be giving baths, brushing hair, feeding, medicine . . . and it is a little too quiet. We feel the most comfortable when we are in the orphanage helping care for the children.

There is such a tremendous need for adoptions, medical care and love here. If the world could only see the faces of the children just wanting to be loved.

China Little Flower

Today we visited the China Little Flower Foster home. This orphanage cares for some of the sickest children in China. Unfortunately George deteriorated over night and was having difficulty breathing this morning. He really needs his family now. Not much else can be done for his heart in China. Please pray his family finds him soon.

We spent the day playing with the children and helping to asses their medical needs. There is such a tremendous need for medical care for these children. All of the children in Little Flower are loved very much by their Nannies.

Please consider opening your hearts to adoption. You can help change the life of a child , one at a time.

Tomorrow we will visit BJU Hospital in Beijing. The two ICU nurses traveling with us will offer training in post op care for children with CHD.

We arrived in China safely. We had dinner with friends and got an overview of our itinerary for the week regarding the heart home.

We also became the Godparent of little George. George has been waiting for his family for a long time. He is almost 2 years old and has a very complex heart condition. He needs his family ASAP. He has the sweetest little personality! If you would like more info. on George please email me and I can tell you who his file is with.

Dear Teresa- China

Dear Teresa,

We are traveling to China to try and make a difference in the lives of orphans.  You wanted your own family and were so happy.  We will try to help other children to have a family also Teresa all in your memory.

We are leaving on Tuesday for China. Thank you everyone for all of the prayers and good wishes! Thank you also to all who helped donate medical supplies. We will try to post often. Teresa , you continue to touch so many lives. 

We love you more ...

God is good!!!!

Dear Teresa- Two Months in Paradise

Dear Teresa,
 It has been two months since you went to paradise.
So how are we doing?
It is really hard to put into words how we are doing.  There have been days that are really hard for us to understand "Why"?  For a parent to bury a child is just wrong. Having to pick out burial clothes,a cemetery plot, a grave stone and putting away all their childs belongings is wrong.  Children are not suppose to die.  They are suppose to experience all the joys in the world like riding a bike, graduating, getting married...  I often wonder why God would allow parents to feel such sorrow?  It is a sadness that can not be put into words.  It encompasses your entire being. The only way I can describe it is , a "Broken Alleluia".

Our faith tells us we will see you again Sweet Pea in Heaven.  And every day without you is one day closer to being with you again.  There are days that we have tremendous peace knowing that God has always had a plan for your life.  And we were just a very small piece of the puzzle.  God continues to lead us on this journey and  we are humbled to be so privileged to have been called your parents for three years.  What a blessing!
We continue to try and adjust to our life without you here. It is still so hard to wake up every morning with out your cheerful "good morning".    There are days where we all seem to be in disbelief that you are gone.   But we are going on.  Trying to live like you lived with tremendous joy for each day, even though your days were filled with so much suffering.   The girls talk about all that they are grateful for every day. We have so much to be thankful for.   God blessed us with you for three years.   Three of the best years of our lives. Filled with so much joy and happiness.  This is more than some people will ever have in a life time. We are eternally grateful to God for blessing us with so much.

The day before you received your "Hero's Heart".  You were having fun being a Princess mermaid.


I have to say though ,   I have never been so happy to see summer end.   Summer was always our favorite season,  filled with lazy days of fun and family, swimming at the pool ,  catching lightning bugs, snow balls and endless days of princess parties.   Unfortunately our summer ended on the day it began.

School has started and the girls were all excited to see their friends.  I am happy the girls are getting into a routine again.  On the first day of school Teresa, the girls decided to hold Baby Belle ( your favorite toy) in the photo to remember you.  They are always thinking of you and talking to you.  Gemma kneels down in front of your bed and says her prayers every night.  She was so sweet tonight as she was talking to you.  She said she can't wait to see you again in Heaven and have a happy ending.

Daddy and I have been very busy getting ready to go to China next week.  I know you are  so happy that we are  helping other children have their "Forever Families" just like you ! Thank you to everyone that has helped with supplies and donations to take to China.  We are very thankful.

You made Gemma so happy the other day when you sent her a beautiful blue butterfly.   We were talking about the little white animals we had seen and how they  reminded us of you.  Gemma said she hoped you would send her a blue butterfly.    Well when we came home the other day we walked up to the front porch to sit down and a beautiful blue butterfly flew around all of us leading us to my chair and sat down on it.  It sat there for 5 minutes just flapping its wings.  You made Gemma so happy!

Mother Teresa
A joyful heart is the inevitable result of a heart burning with love.

You always had such a joyful heart. Always loving others.

Remember when we carved your name into the tree?   You thought that was so silly.  You said it would always be your tree.

We love you more Teresa !

Dear Teresa- Run The Race

Dear Teresa,

This was the reading today in Church.

Hebrews 12:1-2

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.

Run with endurance the race that is set before us.

This is how you lived your life Teresa, never complaining  and enduring everything set before you .  So this is how Daddy and I will live our lives.   We are going to run the race that God has set before us.   And what God has set before us is to help the orphans of China.  We leave on September 10 to go to China and help open the new "Love You More Heart Home" in Beijing in your honor.

We now belong to a new exclusive group.  One that has a very high membership fee...the loss of a precious child.   We all share the same hopes, wishes , dreams and longings for our children that we have lost.  It is not a group that I thought I would ever belong to.  And because we went into your adoption with our eyes wide open and well aware that God may not share you with us for long Teresa, it still does not make the pain any less.  

Daddy and I have decided not to sit at home and constantly think about what woulda , coulda shoulda have happened.   Our faith tells us this was Gods Will and we have peace with it.  We have decided to put into action the change we want to see in the world.  After you went to Heaven we knew we wanted to help more orphans but were so unsure on how to do it. 

That is when "things " started happening.  As we listened , it became very clear.

God is moving mountains, we are just being his hands and feet here on earth to help Him.

Today Gemma and Lucy's favorite memory of you was your secret hand shake.  You would do this hand shake every  morning as you would get on the school bus, every time I would walk out the door(if even for a second) you had to do it.  So now in your memory they are doing it all the time.  We all love it!!!!  Happy Happy memories.

As we prepare to journey into a new season of Fall and also a new season of life, our journey to China,  we hold you sweet girl so close in our hearts trying to make the world a better place for orphans in your memory.


For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Our treasure is in Heaven !!!

Our last photo together as a family.  Our joy was so different then...

Dear Teresa-Little White Animals

 Dear Teresa-

For the past month we have had many encounters with little white animals. First a little white deer came out of the woods by our house as we walked by. Now she comes out EVERY time we walk by and will stand very close to us and stare. Then while we were in Florida at Give Kids The World , a little white squirrel ran in front of us and stopped and followed us around the village. Yesterday at the pool as Lucy and I were sitting on the steps a white butterfly flew around my head 6 times and then landed on my ear, flew around Lucy and then flew over the water and circled all of the girls. 

   We buried you  in your white "Wedding Dress" as you called it.  You  LOVED this dress.   You said you were going to marry Jesus and you were wearing your wedding dress for your first Holy Communion.  Pink was your favorite color but white was your favorite color too because you said it always reminded you of your wedding dress.

Such Happy Memories Sweet girl! What a BLESSING!

Wonder what little white animal you will send us next Teresa? 

 

Dear Teresa- I BELIEVE

Dear Teresa,
This was not the ending that we had prayed for , dreamed about or wished for.  But it is the ending that was  Gods will.  And in the end it was really just the beginning.  The beginning of your eternal life in Heaven. 

Our prayer was for your heart to be healed and we would all live happily ever after.   I believed with all of my heart that this would happen.  I believed that God would answer our prayer for you to be healed here on earth and stay in my arms.  I BELIEVED!

But I also know that some of our prayers can only be answered once we go home to Heaven .  And this was Gods will for you Teresa.  I do not understand,  but I still BELIEVE.
I believe God is good all of the time, not just when things are going our way.
I believe that one day I will be with you again.
I believe  but my heart is still broken.  It is broken from my own pain of not having you here,  grieving for what was , what could have been.

When you are so close to death,  you see everything in a different light.  You could see this Teresa, you knew . Your vision was very clear to you , it was in every beat  of your heart and it was visible looking through your eyes into your soul.

Your outlook on life was from Heaven.  You lived your life with pure love for everyone and everything. You didn't need the most toys or worldly possessions.  You were happy just playing in a make believe bus made from a box with Gemma and being surrounded by "Your Family".

Your visions of heaven were magical just like your personality.  You would describe to me  what you thought  Heaven would look like  and now you are enjoying it all in it's magical splendor.

I believe this.  I believe you are happy, healthy and full of life in Heaven with God.

Life goes on.   We are left here without you to Believe that one day we will be together again.

This week we have Doctors appointments, blood transfusions and surgeries to schedule for your sisters, and life goes on.

Is it true you don't really know what you are missing  until it is gone?  NO!  We did not know what we were missing until we had you !

I asked God why????
How could this be His will?
We fought so hard , prayed so hard.
I feel like I am grasping for the hem of Jesus' cloak, trying to hold on.   Holding on when all  hope seems gone.
But then I am  reminded that there is still hope.  Hope for life with you again Teresa in Heaven.
God still has much for us to do for him here on earth and it is all because of you Teresa.

Will we adopt again?  This is not in "our" plans  but if it is Gods will we will not say no to  Him.

Teresa,  we are going to China very soon.  We will be helping to lay the ground work for the new Heart Home in Beijing,  the "Love You More Heart Home" named after you T Bear! We will be working along side some very caring, loving people here in America and  China.  We will be helping to change the lives of orphans , one child at a time, one heart at a time.
We also will be visiting your orphanage.  We learned that your orphanage director  did not want to release your file for adoption because you were thought to be hopeless.  One caring very determined individual fought very hard for you to be considered adoptable.   We will be talking to this orphanage director to explain to  her just how much purpose your life had and how much purpose EVERY childs life holds .   Every child deserves to be loved and have their own family. 
I know Teresa that we can not save them all.  No one person can help everyone but everyone can help someONE!  We will love and help one child at a time.
"We can do little things with great love" - Mother Teresa

You taught us the true meaning of  Love Teresa, because you were Agape Love.

We will be bringing with us to China medical supplies.  If you would like to help donate any of the items listed below please email me for my address.
1. ECMO cannulas
2. Nonin infant pulse oxymetor sensors
3.Infant vitamin drops with iron
4.Hand sanitizer
5.permethrin cream for scabies

http://www.turnermedical.com/NONIN_8008J_INFANT_FLEX_SENSOR_p/nonin_8008j.htm

http://www.turnermedical.com/NONIN_8001J_NEONATAL_FLEX_SENSOR_p/nonin_8001j.htm

 

We are very grateful for any donations !

Teresa your life is still touching so many lives around the world!
You are  Super Girl!

Dear Teresa- Hugs sent to Heaven

Dear Teresa,
Today we went to the cemetery and sent you hugs, prayers, dreams and love to Heaven.  Your sisters all wrote you a special message on a balloon and then sent them to heaven for you.  I know you will love reading them.  They were so heart felt and filled with the hope of seeing you again in heaven soon.  We also sprinkeled Mickey Magic on your grave that the girls brought back from Disney.
 

You would love how the girls decorated you grave,  full of flowers, angels and princess balloons. 
We buried you right next to Grandmom (my Mom).  Although you never met her on earth , I know in Heaven you two must be inseparable .  She was so much like you and also suffered so much in her life.  We consider this ground to be very Holy!   I know that you remember what happened last year as we were decorating Grandmoms grave with flowers .  We were all bending over in front of the headstone looking at a catapillar and the headstone fell on top of me.  Luckily missing all of you girls but my leg was trapped underneath and I could not get out.  There was no one else around to help and Lucy and Mary tried so hard to lift the headstone but could not make it budge.   Lucy ran back to the car to get my phone so she could call 911. While she was  on the phone Mary  went over and lifted the headstone off of my leg  ALL BY HERSELF!  She said Jesus told her to go around and lift the headstone off of me  and HE would help her.  When help arrived no one could believe that Mary lifted  it by herself because it took three men to lift it just to retrieve my shoe that was still stuck underneath.  Mary does not talk about what happened anymore, if asked she just says it was Jesus not her.

As the balloons slowly flew up to Heaven ,  Mary said " Look they made the shape of a cross".   And they did sweet girl!   They formed a cross as they drifted towards Heaven for you . The girls all stood and watched until they could not see them anymore and were sure  they were in your arms in Heaven.


In every picture we take , there will always be  someone missing...


Helen Keller
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.

God is good all of the time, Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Dear Teresa- one day closer

Dear Teresa, 

Every day without you is one day closer to being with you again!

Who ever said time heals all wounds obviously did not know you or your enormous spirit.   I can say so far time has not healed the wound of losing you. 

Time has only made things different. 

Before we adopted you,  we had no idea how much was missing from our lives.  You showed us what life was all about. 

You just did not visit with the princesses and smile and get your photo taken, you examined every detail of Belle's dress , what color lipstick she was wearing, you noticed every sparkly diamond in her tiara and you asked her if you could try on her shoes!

This is how you lived every second of every day, noticing everything and being so happy about the simplest things in life. 

This is why it has been so very hard to adjust to this new normal.  And I can tell you little T Bear, I do not like it one bit. 

I will admit that the past three years had moments of worry and fear.   But it was all so worth it because YOU brought us so much joy ,love and happiness.  I would do it all again even if God only shared you with us for one day, it all would have been worth it!

There never will be another you, and God knew this.  

To fill this tremendous void of not having you in our arms , God is leading us on a new journey. 

This journey I know will be filled  with much  heart ache but also great joy.  

You see little T , God is taking us back to China.  I know you had a big part in discussing this with God.  We are going to help as many heart children as we can by establishing a heart home for children with the  most complex heart conditions. And with each child we hold, we will be hugging you and helping them to have their forever family just like you so desperately wanted.  All for you sweet girl!

In each child's eyes I will see you.

To everyone who offered to help us on this mission in Teresa's  memory , I will be returning all  of your emails next week. Thank you so much for all of the offers to help in any way. 

I know God has great plans for Your love  to keep  flowing  even from heaven Teresa .

Your light was too bright to go out.  From heaven you will shine even brighter! 

"To find your way in this world, listen to your heart"- PJ Hendricks

We listened to our heart when we answered the call to adopt you Teresa.  How blessed we have been by adoption! 

Dear Teresa - GKTW

Dear Teresa ,  

This morning we got up very early so we could volunteer at Give Kids The World.   Guess what we saw Teresa as we went outside ?  A beautiful sunrise with pink princess clouds to remind us of you !  Remember T how much fun you had at GKTW on your wish trip?   You loved eating ice cream for breakfast and thought that was so silly.  Well guess what ,  your sisters all had ice cream for breakfast with LOTS of cherries on top in your memory.   We looked at your star again in The Castle Of Dreams.   I wonder what you wished for on that magical day two years ago .  You never told me .  You would giggle and say it was a secret   every time I would ask you . 

My wish today was to just have one more  day with you.  

Dear Teresa - Belle

Dear Teresa , 

What a magical day we had today.  

We met  a wonderful family at Epcot this morning that had been praying for you for three years.  Their family also has been blessed  by adoption.  

What a joy to finally be able to meet this family. 

Then the girls had a special lunch planned by The Joy Hope Foundation with all the Princesses.    Belle greeted us as we arrived.   I was praying Sweet Pea  that you would give me the strength  to meet Belle because she was your FAVORITE Princesses .  You wore her dress almost everyday and knew every line in the movie and could sing all the songs .   

I was doing good Sweet Pea until Belle looked at your picture and started crying .  

You had an incredible gift Teresa of being able to touch people's hearts while you were on earth and you are still touching hearts only now from heaven .  

The girls also met Mulan and shared your photo with her.    You are not going to believe this T but she looked at me and said she knew you!  I asked her how and she said last month a friend came to Epcot and asked her to send a special message to a little girl named Teresa that was having a heart transplant.    You see Teresa  many people loved you so much that someone we have never met emailed me while you were in the hospital and asked if they could send you a special video message from all the princesses at Disney.  Daddy and I sat in the hospital and watched every one of the special messages from the princesses all wishing to see you and for you to feel better.  Sadly Sweet Pea you never got to see them on earth but I know you can see them now from heaven. All your sisters have watched the messages and it made them smile.

Mulan was so happy that  she was able to meet us and said your story really touched her heart! 

We never intended to make all the princesses cry but we cried right along with them because we all love you so much sweet girl!

We continued to walk around Epcot on  Gemmas mission to make sure she gave EVERY Princess  your photo and the letter she wrote to each one  , we finally met with  Aladdin and Jasmine.  

What another moving experience it was.  They spent so much  time with your sisters. They took photos and then took them for a walk around Morocco showing them the shops with all of their treasures. They then stopped at the fountain to make a wish.   But not just any wish Teresa , a wish for you and they sent it to heaven!  

When Gemma told us a few weeks ago that she wanted to give the princesses your photo and a tiara , we thought it would be a very good way for her to heal and smile.  At the same time I knew it would be very difficult for daddy and I to do because we knew how much you loved all of them and we thought it would be too painful for us to do . 

Yes , it has been very painful to be here with out you Teresa.   You were all of the Disney princesses  wrapped up into one sweet, loving little girl.  But what I have learned  from this experience , I will cherish forever.  Just like your entire life and having you as our daughter for the past three years , there was more to this than just visiting the princesses.  Like everything in your life it has a meaning and a purpose.  I was so afraid of coming  and not having you here and doing something that you lOVED, I wasn't sure I would be strong  enough to smile for your sisters.  But you gave me the strength and with each princess we meet and share your story with we all get stronger.  It's not about what we dont have .  It's about what we do have .  We still have you in our hearts.  We were blessed to have you for three years. God is good . 

After leaving Epcot we visited Give    Kids The World .  What a humbling experience this is to be able to help others smile .  Mayzie brought so many smiles to the childrens faces.  She absolutely loved all of the attention she received.  You see Teresa , Mayzie also misses you  very much .   Remember how she would lick your face when you would run around?   She knew your oxygen was getting too low  and she would start licking you and you would stop and rub her tummy and sit with her .  Well when we came home from the hospital she knew  you were in heaven and she started licking  and licking her leg because she was so upset .  Even though Mayzie was trained to help Emilia she always has helped everyone.  She is very sensitive and can feel many emotions. So I was not surprised when she would help you also. But she has felt the emotion of sadness in our family for the past 4 weeks along with the rest of us. 

Bringing her with us has been very therapeutic for her.   

Your journey never was an easy one sweet girl, and along the way you had many lessons to teach to the world.   As our family continues on this journey now with out you in our arms , we hold you close in our hearts.   You continue to teach us so much.

"The key to our heaven is LOVE"- Cinderella