God is good all of the time.
Some people say that when God answers their prayers that God is good , or if things are going great in their lives , that God is good. If their child came through surgery and their child is doing great, then God is good. But what about all the children that did not do well in surgery or the people who are struggling with challenges in their lives. Is God being bad to them? No , I believe God is good all of the time. Not only when things are going our way but also when things do not go the way we have planned. Our prayers are always heard and answered. But some prayers will only be answered in Heaven. And this does not make God bad.
In our limited ability as humans , we can only see life from this side of the grave. God see's life from Heaven and eternity. And because of this I always trust Gods Will. It doesn't mean that I understand it but by faith I believe.
With all five of our adoptions , God has slowly pried one finger at a time on my grasp of control of my life away. With Teresa, I still had one finger holding on for my own control of my life. Now my hand is completely open reaching for Jesus's hand. For Him to have complete control of my life and lead me to do HIS Will.
Giving up control was hard for someone that is a control freak. But once I let go, life is so much easier.
Our trip to China was amazing! Even though we have traveled to China 5 times before for adoptions, it was totally different experiencing things that happen before adoption.
Our days were long and full. We accomplished so much and laid the groundwork for what we need to accomplish for the "Love You More Heart Home".
As we continue to work out the details I will share them with you as we proceed , but for now I can say it will be wonderful. Every person involved had a hand in taking care of Teresa or knowing Teresa while she was in China. How God's Will led us to all of these people is a miracle in its self. Totally orchestrated by God just like everything in Teresa's life. All having so many happy memories of Teresa to share with us.
Lily helped to take care of Teresa 3 years ago. She is so caring and goes above and beyond to help the children.
Someone asked me if we had known the plans God had for us to do His Will would we still have been so willing to say yes. God reveals His Will to us a little at a time. And gives us the Grace to do it as we need it. If you had asked me if I thought I could go through 2 weeks with Teresa's new heart not working , 3 open heart surgeries in 2 weeks, emergencies, infections, Caths., suffering and then holding her as she died I would of said there is no way I could do that. But God gives us the strength at the moment we need it to go on and be strong. And now traveling to China 2 months after Teresa went to heaven, to help open a heart home for orphans with heart disease like her , I would of said the same thing. But God has once again led us and orchestrated it all and is in control.
Teresa' whole life was an amazing journey. One filled with so much love and hope. Now as the journey continues for us with her in heaven, we know God will lead us and give us the strength. With Teresa sending her love and hugs to the world.