Teresa is doing so well. Thank you everyone for all of your prayers for her !
She continues to adjust so well to everyone and everything. Gemma and Teresa have become best friends. (they are just 3 months apart in age ) . They play together so well. Whenever they are apart they are so lonely , as soon as they are together again they hug each other like they have been apart forever.
Eating is still a challenge. Teresa is a picky eater with no appetite.
Sleeping has never been a problem ,she usually sleeps from 9-10. Before she falls asleep she serenades us with her favorite songs (sung in Chinese) and then she tries to sing her new songs in English. We have her sleeping in a pack and play in our bedroom for now so we can keep a closer watch on her at night. She also MUST kiss and hug everyone before going to sleep(even if one of the girls is already asleep ,she tip toes in their room and quietly kisses and hugs them ). When she wakes in the morning she is just as sweet. She will stand up and say "Hi Mama I love you" and give me the biggest hug.
Her transition to our family continues to amaze me. She is so happy and in love with everyone. She has not had any bonding problems or grieving. It's like she has always been a part of us .
To look at her you would not believe her heart is so ill. I have been trying to educate myself as much as possible on her condition. Everything I read always ends the same, "This condition is fatal". I am not ready to accept that. I keep trying to find a cure,a fix or solution for her heart, reading more literature , studying different procedures ,anything to make her live longer. Then I realized what I was doing. I was trying to control GODS plan for her life. It was going to be the ending that I wanted and I was going to find a way to save her. Teresa's entire life has been in GODS hands since she was born . She should have died shortly after birth , but she didn't . She will be 4 on Christmas day , her heart should not still be beating , but it is . Not by my doing but by GODS.
How do you prepare to welcome a child into your family knowing you will love them instantaneously , unconditionally forever and then at the same time accept that you must let them go ?
I struggle with this everyday .
We are still learning to take life one day at a time.